It may be too early to say, but I don’t think so. I have lost a certain faith in humanity in doing this job. Don’t get me wrong, I am so glad that I am working for this organization and I don’t regret a single moment accepting this internship. However, and this also may just be a phase, I feel as though a veil has been lifted, revealing the truly ugly and saddening aspect of human beings. I know that there definitely are some beautiful, amazing sides to people and I have been blessed and privileged many times to have been exposed to those great moments. But right now, I am bogged down by too much negativity and I am having a very hard time depersonalizing this experience and disassociating myself with my work.
I just can’t understand why some human beings treat each other so badly. I don’t understand what makes some of us so unhappy The number of individuals (and I know a lot myself) who suffer from depression, anxiety, or some other psychological disease, is just startling. We abuse, ruin, ravage, violate children, women, men and, worst of all, our planet. What makes people so desperate, angry and unhappy to the point that they turn on each other and on themselves?
I am sorry this is getting very dark and dramatic and it is probably the last thing people want to be reading about. So, I will say no more, except that I am glad that I realize now that I will not be able to make a career out of this and keep a positive, enthusiastic and giving personality at the same time. But again...it has only been a week and half.
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